| Sunday, November 25th, 2007 |
| 7:20 am |
This owns
Sigh, the first techno song i ever listened to five years back. |
| Tuesday, November 20th, 2007 |
| 10:32 pm |
To my little sister.
You dont deserve this. I dont deserve your friendship or to call you friend. I really truly made a mistake i can never recover from. I cant think straight now. Im falling and falling and regretting. You are still my sister. I dont care what I did it does not change the way I feel. I wont expect you to ever forgive me, but by golly if I had to lay my life down for you. I would. And im sure you know I would. I dont give excuses. i take the entire blame for fucking up again. Take your time. Remember what I have done. Cause even though i forgot something as important as that special day, I never forgot everything you done for me. You were there when no one trusted me. You were there when no one else cared. You sacrificed your money, effort time for me. It may sound just rhetorical now. but really i mean this. and im gonna prove it to you... its feeble isn't it? what im saying here? cause it feels like my words are useless now. i love you. im sorry that im hurting you. i would rather die then do that. if you dont ever want to see me or talk to me i understand. i would step away and disappear. but if u ever want to forgive me... let me call you... |
| Monday, November 12th, 2007 |
| 2:03 pm |
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| Saturday, November 10th, 2007 |
| 11:17 am |
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| Monday, October 8th, 2007 |
| 10:32 pm |
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| Sunday, September 30th, 2007 |
| 12:32 pm |
The Legion is Upon Us!
Less then 30 days and we will be fighting for our lives and future. The Legion is upon us. My Prelims went relatively well. Not great, not good but better then mid years. Mid Years Prelims Geog O C Econs E D Lit F E GP C5 B4 So overall I managed to improve by two or one grade. Hoping to achieve similar feat during the As. So my target will be an A, B, C and A2. If possible, A,A,C. Studying like a made ass now. One month. Pure Studying. Update will come after As. So watch for it on 20th November! Current Mood:  dorkyCurrent Music: Tenacious D - Car Chase City |
| Tuesday, September 25th, 2007 |
| 1:47 pm |
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| Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007 |
| 8:52 pm |
Sorry Part 2.
I was wrong. I should not have lied. I still care. But have not shown it. I neglected those who cared. those who matter. i dunno anymore. im sorry. |
| Saturday, May 12th, 2007 |
| 8:08 pm |
On Dumb People and Poseurs.
Today I will write about what I did today! Yes.. so rare right? Anyway. I headed to Little India. Had my favourite Ghee Thosai at my favourite vegetarian restaurant, Ananda Bhavan. We had a very indian indian day. Headed to Mustafa and found the tights. Went back after. THE END (i hate it that my leg is in such pain. I got nothing else to do now except slowly kiss the pain away. WHATEVER that means.) (On a side note. I cant stand people who think they are so fuckin righteous. FUCK that.) (On the third side note, I need my painkillers cause now i cant fuckin walk!) love. Hardie. |
| Sunday, May 6th, 2007 |
| 8:11 pm |
On The End
Ok. The time is eight eighteen. and i have a sore throat. my previous post was made when i was under my medication therefore the countless spelling errors. i got to go cause my mother is watchin me type. its kind of odd, but yeah... thats life. ok im gonna see whether my leg is alright. lalala. (two days more.) |
| Thursday, May 3rd, 2007 |
| 7:09 pm |
You Know You are in Trouble...
...When you cant bend your right leg and need to take a quick poop... Things could have gotten worst. Actually. This year is an all time fucked up year. 2007. But I learned what I did wrong. But sometimes you keep thinging to yourself, where did it all go? Its May. I have not really studied. I feel quiet. I wish I could see her and tell her. But I know it will hurt the both of us. I rather not. I got things to do know. My knee is officially screwed. I am really on my own now. Its scary. I wish it was not like this. I miss her. I want to watch Spiderman 3. Rawr... Do they even care what we do? Sleep I need. I am too tired. I wish things were easier. But since when have I ever liked it easy? Hmm? Take care old friend. You start the next journey of your life tomorrow. Thank you for all the lessons. Hold strong. And always look towards the light. |
| Thursday, April 26th, 2007 |
| 9:33 pm |
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| Sunday, April 22nd, 2007 |
| 12:00 pm |
Have a Hearty Breakfast...
... for tonight we dine in hell. i look back and wonder. Could I have done something? I look back and wonder... Being here finally made me realise, that being a leader, a captain, it is a very lonely position. You are looked up to, but you are not one of your men, no matter what you do. you fight and bleed for them. You do because it is your duty to fight and bleed for them. You love them, but cannot show it. You punish them, but hide the pain you feel. I am captain. I am proud of my men. They will be proud of me. On Wednesday, we go head to head with rivals, PJC. Friendly we are to each other, but we will fight with all our abilities to win the day. My Brother, Li Nan, I still remember the days we fought against the toughest of opponents. Now, you shall face me... I remember the day when it was Nash, you and Me as the front row. We took out scrums after scrums. Did lineouts flawlessly, now you face me... No mercy. -ressurection |
| Thursday, April 12th, 2007 |
| 8:40 pm |
On Rugby and Death Squads.
Two minutes left. I saw the gap. I made the call. We nearly when over. We did brothers. We did it. It was close but I will not take away the spirit enacted on that day. |
| Tuesday, April 10th, 2007 |
| 11:22 pm |
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| Saturday, March 31st, 2007 |
| 11:19 pm |
Men on the Field.
Tired. Exhausted. We got nothing left to hit them with. Run the rules through your head again. 1.Discipline 2.Passion 3.Respect 4.Determination 5.Teamwork I got the first. (my shoulders stiffen) I got the second. (I lower my knees) I got the third. (I focus my target) I got the forth. (I run hard) I got the fifth. (I make the fucking tackle.) I know my role. Do you know yours? |
| Thursday, March 29th, 2007 |
| 10:45 pm |
Disappear. Part 2.
Who would have thought fate would serve such a cruel dish to me. I saw the black. and i prayed hard. look after them! NO! don't take me yet. I got to look after them... Not now. Let me go. I fought. I said no! I revolted! I started a rebellion. Within the confines of my mind! The black started to fade. I saw her face again. I smiled. Not my turn to go yet. |
| Wednesday, March 28th, 2007 |
| 4:49 pm |
Disappear.
Pains go phantom Blood stops running People fade away (all i need is a better song to make things better.) Thereismoreihavetosay.somuchmore. but... I've disappeared. (i feel better) |
| Monday, March 19th, 2007 |
| 1:06 am |
Now What?
Now what do I do? I keep blinking hoping it will go away but its not going. Is it wrong to dream that you can save the world. I hate people who try and bring me down. I hate people who take advantage of others. I hate people who steal. I hate people who think they are superiors. I hate those who believe I am nothing. I hate people that think I am nothing. I hate people who want me dead. I love people to try and bring me down. I love people to try take advantage while I stand strong. I love people who squeal as I tackle them down. I love to prove my detractors wrong. I love to make people believe in me again. I love people to think me something. I love people to try and fucking kill me. I like pain, or so I thought. Now theres so much that I fear its too much for me to handle. (why do people cut themselves when the pain they already feel is so great? stupidity of people.) 20 Rules When Playing Rugby 1. Tackle Hard. 2. Stand Strong 3. Go Forward 4. Kill Them All 5. Show No Mercy 6. Protect You Brothers 7. Hammer-stroke 8. Psychological Warfare 9. Drive 10. Determination 11. Fear Nothing 12. Shoulder First 13. I Eat Backs for Breakfast! 14. Hit 15. Hook 16. Throw 17. Ruck Over! 18. Bridge! 19. 3-vs-1(me) 20. Go Crazy 21. Concussion 22. Smile 23. Shake Hands 24. Check Hand-Eye Co-ordination 25. Repeat Steps (rules thirteen for the Backs is - 13. I Burn Forwards for Fun, though this is nearly impossible, its good to think positive. :) ) |
| Saturday, March 17th, 2007 |
| 12:09 am |
It is fatal to enter any war without the will to win it. -General Douglas MacArthur |
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